So read on if you Dare Enter the MIND of SHERIN STARK.....
I know some of you know that this winter (darkness and cold) has really Gotten to me Emotionally more than any winter since I moved away from Alaska. Yes I know it happens and NO I am not Beating myself up over it. HOWEVER I am Frustrated by it, and hears why a little of WHY!
I have been reading Personal Development books that have taught me:
* HOW to put things in place to avoid the things that trigger Depression in me.
* HOW to put things in place to Pull myself out of it when it does Come.
* That allowing myself to wallow in it, only Increases the time it lasts and how DEEP I go.
* Happiness is Created and does NOT come Naturally
* Money does NOT buy Happiness, although it may buy options, if you can't be happy without it you Wont be happy with it.
* Spending time complaining or being Negative takes away from the Positive or Joy I could be feeling.
And the List Goes on and On and ON.....
So with all this Knowledge WHY did I allow this to Happen to me, and NOT pull myself right out???
I have been thinking on this and praying about this and talking with friends about this and Here is the Conclusion that I came to, and I hope that in some way if you are battling something similar this will Help You!
When Much is Given Much is Required!!!
Am I Grateful to have SO much Good in my Life, so many Opportunities to Serve, Wonderful People to travel my Journey of Life with, and because of FEELING So Blessed I feel I MUST Constantly be Giving and Going.
And When I can't Give (due to our circumstances) I get upset that I can't give, and feel Sad, Upset, Frustrated, Sorry, and those feelings can lead to Depression.
When I Hit a Wall and can't keep GOING at the Speed I was, rather than Take time to recoup, I get MAD that I can't do what I am used to. Because I feel I am Expected to Be STRONG and Able to do ALL that God puts in my Path.
HOWEVER I have been learning that I can't be "Yes MAN" and I am NOT a "SUPER HUMAN" my Body and Mind NEED to be Replenished and NEED to slow down sometimes.
Again although I KNEW all of this HERE is what I Didn't Know or Realize: I need to Schedule the time to Slow Down, I need to Say NO, and when I do, I NEED to Realize these are a Part of LIFE and Accept them Happily, Look forward to them, Enjoy Them, and Soak up the Healing, Spiritual Growth, Boost of Emotions that they offer. Instead of taking those opportunities due to Force (my body/mind shutting down on me) and then being upset the whole time I go through it.
LIFE is Meant to Have JOY along the Way, and Every single Part of life is for our Profit and Learning. There will be Ups and Downs and we can Learn to make More Ups then Downs when we Take Care of not only our Health Physically, but Mentally, Emotionally and Spiritually as Well.
So my Goal from NOW on is that When I take a Break, to LET go of what I don't NEED to be thinking about, Let go of the tasks that can be done in a few hours or tomorrow, and Soak in the Serenity and Healing my Soul Needs.
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