So I decide to Get Really real with Y'all and share with you a little bit of how my life is and how it's not as perfect as it may appear to be. I also don't want to make this post miles long, so I will try to just get to the point with out adding too much fluff. :)
I need to start back about 5-6 years ago. My hubby and I did some real estate investments that went very bad when the housing market crashed in 2006. Due to that in 2007 we decided to move to Florida for a "Fun" adventure and to try and sell our house. We figure it would last a year or so and we would come right back home (to the west coast).
WOW, were we wrong. we ended up stuck in a not so great situation, I had 2 small children, my husband worked over an hour each way from home and we had 1 car. So of course that meant I was stuck at home with NO neighbors for at least a mile and no close friends to come visit me or pick me up to spend the day with them.
We ended up getting the house we lived in foreclosed on as we couldn't afford $1,800 a month for the 3 bed 2 bath home we had built. We found ourselves relying on Food Stamps, we found ourselves with out power for a few days because my husband had lost his Job, due to the market crash.
I was depressed, Miserable, and pleading daily for months for the Lord to allow us to move back to Idaho.
I HATED my life in Florida.
I hated the Huge Bugs
I hated the Humidity
I hated that when around Holiday when ever we would invite some one to spend it with us so we wouldn't feel so alone, they would politely decline saying they were going to be spending it with their families.
I hated that my family was in Alaska and in 5 years Never once came to visit me, although I went to visit them twice.
I hated that I was stuck at a house with two little kids, whom were whiny and clingy and needy. Although I loved them very much, it was just tough to be a parent with no break.
I hated that my husband and I constantly fought over money because it never seemed we had enough
I hated that I felt so ALONE and with out close friends that I could talk with, and then if I ever did talk with any one I felt guilty because all I did is complain about my miserable life.
So I'm not going to explain the whole process of how we came to be back in Idaho, but It happened.
I did not want to be that same miserable person I was in Florida so when I moved I decided that I would put that life behind me, be grateful to be back closer to (my hubby's side) family and near a few friends, I had know before we moved.
But Guess what the week after I moved I found out we were pregnant with baby number three it took my husband 8 months to find a Decent job that could pay the bills, but by then we had borrowed thousands from friends and family just to not find ourselves homeless and starving, and I was feeling like I could never get out of the awful Pit of Despair we found ourselves in AGAIN.
Gosh Darn it, WHY!!!!!
Why was this happening TO ME again. Even once my hubby did find work and I had the baby we still couldn't seem to make ends meet and were always behind and Still on Food Stamps. I was embarrassed felt like there was NO way out. This was simply going to be m life, living pay check to pay check. Arguing daily with my spouse and always screaming at my babies.
Then IN summer of 2014 my friend shared with me the opportunity to become a coach with Beachbody. She shared with me about making Personal development a part of my life EVERY day. Reading/ Listening to books that would teach me how to Rise above my circumstances and Stop letting LIFE Just Happen To Me.
I Learned that we Create Ourselves and our lives to be what WE want them to be. WE DO have control over our thought and thoughts become actions and actions become your LIFE.
So although I still someday's yell at my kids,my back still is in pain a few times a month, my hubby and I still get into nitpicking arguments, my house is rarely all clean, and we rent a house that we don't care for, I have Mounds of laundry on a weekly basis that NO one else with help with, unless I SCREAM and threaten, Dirty dishes that pile up, because my kids think they need a new cup every time they get a drink. And plenty of other not so perfect circumstances.
I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY, I choose to keep pushing on and working towards Creating the Life I want to live. Because Giving UP is not An option, I will NOT go back to the Sad depressing life I lived before.
So Why did I take the time to type all this up when I need to be running out the door on a Date night with my hubby to celebrate his Birthday Day???
Because I wish some one would have shared with me back when my life was a Sad depressed state that their is a WAY OUT! There is a path to follow that does not involve HUGE Major Changes in your mind shift, but causes HUGE MAJOR changes in your LIFE!!!
TODAY I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY!!!!
p.s. that doesn't mean there are not days i feel sad or life doesn't try to drag me down, but i choose not to allow those days to define me, Because I am a Happy Person. Oh and some days a I want a donut so I eat one.
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