LIFE...Is Bearable When You Make Your Bed

I have been wanting to BLOG for a couple weeks, but I have still been battling some depression, anxiety and parenting/marital trials and I just have NOT been sure HOW to approach this subject until this MORNING. 

I was tagged in a post from one of my fellow Coaches this morning, that gave me that Ah-Ha I KNOW what I need to say and How I NEED to approach it. Here goes....

This Summer has been thee hardest most Trying three months of my LIFE! Many of you that have followed me know many of the details but just a run down. 

If you have been following me you can skip all of this paragraph: In May my son got suspended from school, then the next week my husband took a new job that we thought would be a wonderful answer to our prayers, well 30 days later the guy turned out to be Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde and Fired and we were without a job for Layne again. Next the first week of June my son attempted suicide and had a mental break down. Then that caused my Face to flare up in some awful rash that was blistered and swollen and miserable. Finally after all of the month of June trying to figure out all three of those things, my hubby landed another job. Not nearly as promising income wise but much more stable. July rolled around and my face was most of the way healed we finally found the right balance of meds for our son that he was doing better and things were pretty okay at that point. I went to my Beachbody Coach Annual Summit which should have been a wonderful uplifting and educational time, but I found out some traumatic stuff about a relative while I was there and that triggered my body to Shut down, and my leg and back to seize up. So I came back and was laid up in bed for 10 days. I finally began to heal from that, and then things with my business began to Fall to pieces. My Goodness can we just catch a Break (is kinda how I was beginning to feel at that point) But I also know that GOD allows us to go through things to teach us and mold us and shape us into who he want's us to be and into the Person who can Best CHANGE the World for the better. 

Obviously I left out a whole ton of details, for times sake, but you can I am sure feel and see the picture, that this all paints. 

Picture sundown time, sitting on a bench in a park during late fall when the trees only have a few stray leaves hanging on and winter could settle in at any moment. The birds have silenced their songs, it's too cold for any one else to be venturing out at the the park. The swings are still, no laughter of children. Just Still Quite and Bleak!

Well this is how my life felt, very unbearable, and still some days it does. So when I saw this video Clip here: https://youtu.be/xoQn2ZRp6Yo that my friend had tagged me in, I was so touched that my emotions were uncontrollable and the tears began to wet my cheeks and fall to the desk and my shoulders were shaking and all these emotions came flooding to the surface. 

You See, I made it a goal to make my bed daily about 18 months ago and I did for Months and Months, and then all of a sudden life seemed to overwhelming and I stopped. It's been on and off that I have made the bed for the past couple of months, so I wasn't even feeling that sense of accomplishment first thing in my day. 

But more than that, I cried because I have felt for Years (since I was a teen) that I have a HUGE calling in this life, 

*a Calling to Make the World a Better Place to Live, 

*a More Bearable, even Enjoyable Place to live and recently I have felt like "a little nothing". 

Like if I were to die tomorrow I would have a handful of friends at my funeral (heck I don't even know if my parents would attend, they didn't even attend my own wedding) but that nothing I have done in this life has been Life Altering, I wouldn't be Talked about or reminisced about, because I haven't made much of an Impact. 

However after the end of the Video I felt:

* HOPE, 

* LIGHT, 

* ENERGY, and a 

* Desire to RISE up & Change my circumstances, Stop allowing myself to wallow or feel so down in the dumps. 

I began thinking and listing off in my mind the Accomplishments I have made, the lives I have changed, or impacted. That although it might not be thousands or millions, Those who I have touched some I have helped Save their lives, change the course their life was headed in, or simply lifted up their weary heads & showed them the light or opportunity in front of them. 

I have 3 Children who I know have great things in store for them and I (Sherin) am Blessed to be their Mommy, Now that right there is HUGE. 

I started thinking of all the little things that I do daily, reading scriptures, praying, reaching out and lifting others, serving my family, serving friends, serving in my church and assisting my clients. Encouraging others to lift their eyes to God, keeping the house livable (sometimes Clean) meals cooked and kids well dressed and clean. I workout and take care of my health, I eat good foods so that I can have the Energy I need to accomplish all the little tasks. 

I realized, thanks to this video, that it's all the Little things that add up and MAKE Me Great! These things will Bless others lives, and set the example to my children and those I meet that "I am a Woman of God" and with him by my side and waking up to make my bed, Life can be Bearable, and even Joyous no matter what comes our way. 

Perspective is HUGE, and although it may seem too hard to see things any differently some days, Just start your day by rolling to your knees and giving thanks to God and Asking him for the strength to get through, then stand up and Make That Bed... You'll start out each day with a sense of accomplishment and GOD along side you fighting your battles and getting you through LIFE.

GOD Never intended this life to be Bearable on our OWN!

He intended us to have HIM along side us, Family and Friends to Encourage, Support and Cheer us along, and when we allow those things in (rather than push them away) it's kinda like we Powered up on a video Game, and we can bust through walls or jump higher and father than we could before. 

If there is anything I want you to get out of this whole thing it's this, There is NO Onetime HUGE Change that will Fix everything and make Life Bliss, it's the Small and Simple Daily steps when done with your Support System along side you, Will MAKE YOUR LIFE Bearable and Worth Living. 

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