NOW 14.5 years into Marriage I realize my temptations as a YOUTH were NOTHING compared to what I battle with NOW. Plus as an Adult I am Responsible for ME, my Thoughts, Actions, and Choices, no parents to step in and Rescue me or Help me see the Outcome before I get to far in.
Nope I am Solely Responsible and although I love that Freedom I also HATE it. Adulting is Rough many days, especially if you are battling not only your choices but several little People who are Watching you and Expecting you to be their Super Hero to Follow.
Being 100% Faithful to your Spouse in your Thoughts and Actions is WAY more difficult than it would seem when your Marriage is NOT as Blissful as you Planned for it to be. Satan certainly Revels in any opportunity to Sneak his way in and try to Unravel things just a bit more, even if it may seem Harmless at the time.
Being a Patient, Kind, Loving Mother 100% of the TIME is Not even POSSIBLE, yet I sure thought it was. I thought my kids would WANT to be have because I would know how to Love them and Support them and offer them opportunities for Growth. WELL I didn't even know what ADHD or Anxiety was as a Teen, so how in the world could I have imagined I would have two children who would battle this Daily.
I was also under the false Impression that It was a Mother/Wives Responsibility to ALWAYS put your Spouse and Children First (That is what I always saw my mother doing) NO matter if that meant you weren't Happy, didn't feel Loved, weren't able to fulfill your Passions and Desires. and The Women who did do those things WERE NOT Women following what GOD wanted for them, they were hurting their marriages and their children.
I have Since had my eyes OPEN big time I have Learned that UNTIL we Put
God - First
Myself - 2nd
Family - 3rd, &
Everything Else 4th, 5th, and so on...
That I Could NOT find JOY in this Life, I could NOT be the Best wife I could be, or the Patient mother I really want to be.
Since having the Beachbody Coaching Opportunity come into my life, I have had so many misconceptions erased, and NEW ways of thinking put into my mind through over a dozen books on bettering myself so that I can be better for others.
I have Learned that putting my Health, Emotionally, Physically, and Mentally FIRST and Prioritizing my Life around that, I can Accomplish MORE, Serve more Freely, and Live with JOY in my day to day LIFE.
But one of the Coolest things about this New found knowledge is that it has taught me "Not all Negative in your life happens TO YOU, Most of it happens FOR YOU" We can learn so much from our Negative experiences. We can learn how to be Stronger, more compassionate, wiser, etc... More often than NOT if we will allow it to, the Negative is Preparing us to be able to connect with someone GOD plans to place in your life who will NEED you to have experienced that exact trial.
I have learned to quit thinking I am a Victim who BAD happens too and I NOW think how can this Prepare me, Improve, me, allow me to GROW....
***Challenge for those who would like:
Write down 1 Negative you are going through in your life right now and two you have gone through in the past.
NOW write down 3 Positive things that you have gained from these Negative Experiences and find a way to Utilize them for Good in your WEEK.
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