As I fell to my Knees this morning in prayer I began saying the usual things that I do, you know the:
"I'm grateful for the sunshine, my home, the rest I got last night."
"I am grateful for my children and husband, please bless them."
And so on, and then I cam to "ME" and my mind kinda went blank I wasn't sure how to say it or word it or even what to say. I felt like my mind began to wander and I had to keep reminding myself that it was time to be praying not making a list of tasks for the day.
I began just saying what came to mind OUT Loud with my eyes open as if the Lord were sitting across from me.
"...I don't want to be a Band-aid any more and just assist people in covering up their problems, I want to work with you to help Heal People and get rid of their problems, How Lord can you show/teach me how to do this?"
And then my prayer went on and the Thought Came to my mind. "YOU can not HEAL Anyone, YOU can Not HELP Anyone, all you can do is OFFER them a chance to Change their Life and they can Choose to take it or Leave it." "Even I being GOD can not Change their Lives unless they allow me in and let take the necessary steps to do so."
And BAM.... It hit me, I can not Change Anyone as much as I desperately want to, because I know their lives could be happier if they were healthier, I Realized all I can do is offer my assistance. I can't keep trying to be their Band-aid, listening to their woe's of why they can't make the change or why it's so hard, and consoling them.
That's NOT what GOD does, he says I will be Ready to HELP YOU when you are Ready to Change, he doesn't coddle us or run along side us asking us over and over how we are doing, if we are ready yet.
He makes us very Aware he is ALWAYS standing with outstretched arms and Eager to Pick Us Up and Run With us when we are READY to do it HIS WAY, not half his way, not a quarter his way.
The Reason why is he is our Parent and HE knows what's BEST for us, even when we can't see it. So although it may seem like his way SUCKS (cause sometimes it hurts since we resist a lot) IT will always bring us the most JOY and Success in our LIFE.
I am by NO means trying to compare myself to GOD.
However, also KNOW that I am here to Assist each and every one of you when you are Ready and Desire the Change Necessary to PUT your Health a Priority in your life.
I also have realized MY Health, My Family, and MY GOD all MUST come before anything else, and I can't spend hours a week, trying to drag any one along who is resisting. It's just Draining me, and Killing my Spirits.
I Know that may come across as HARSH, and I may lose a few friends who view themselves as Victims and the World, God, others OWE them.
I LOVE YOU!!!
Just like a Parent may love their child they also MUST let them go and experience things their way. Plus I need to be able to GIVE the Attention to those who Are READY for Change that they Need to Succeed.
If you are Ready for Change, Sick of feeling unhealthy, depressed, anxious, not motivated, think you don't have time, PLEASE lets talk (Friends that USED to be ME, I hated my life, and COULDN'T see a way to change it or HOW to get out of the life I was living) I want to Bless your life the way mine has been blessed so Desperately.
-Sherin Stark
